My Things

[Sasha Workbench]

I'll start off with a story, in my youth I learned that I was adopted due to the fact that I was a lab child with messed up chromosomes and blah, blah, blah. My parents through me away putting drugs in my systems before I was born, causing me to have no control over certain areas of my mind and sometimes body, this made me an insomniac, (meaning it is hard for me to get sleep) ADHD, and just an anti social person sometimes. my life knows no peace and it truly a personal topic, poor, stupid, and unwanted topic but when I wrote what is below I was suffering from other things as well that I hope I recovered from. This is only a faction of the story, sorry for boring you on to the song lyrics




I wake up at two a.m. in my bed
All the problems seem to enter my head
Wide awake now listening to a different voice
Do I really have no real choice?

I feels like I always stand alone
But something seems to move all my bones
Always failing to remain strong
But all the comfort of home is all gone

Who eyes do I see when I close mine
It is only two a.m. but I swear I doing fine
But now I think that it is changing me
When these things take hold you will never be free
This is how the day begins

Why can’t I truly find no holy place?
Is there no way these sins can be erased?
I keep finding it harder to fight
for when you're surrounded by dark there is no light

Who eyes do I see when I close mine
They're emerald green but others are blue sometimes
I think they are slowly killing me
No peace for a sinner I telling you to end it please
And it is only two a.m.

I feel like I am endlessly falling
These things are killing me
Addiction takes my hand I’ll never be free
I hear my demons still calling
Yeah they are calling me
I guess I have no choice, there is a voice, holding me back and changing my ways

Why do I keep seeing these things
Is it a curse that my parents brought on to me
It hurts, but I’m trying to survive
But maybe it is better off if I keel over and die?

It is only two a.m. I just begging you please
I hope that you can truly help me
I feel like my life falling into bits
I thank my stars that it is you I’m with
You were right, we survived
You might be just one voice in my head but I feel fine
Why can’t people be just like you…
It only two a.m. but I’ll make it through

[Sasha Workbench]

They told me taste the sky
But they chained me down to earth
So how can I get high
If I can’t even leave this world

So where do I go to touch the clouds
When everyone is feeling down into the pain with in
So how can we try to fly
When the world is nothing but nine and everything is sin
So why do we run from this pain
When no one can be the same
That whole last line
Was just a lie because we all seek fame.

So why do we run from a fear
Does bravery bring us to tears
Is life worth living I no longer know
The pain that I am feeling I am scared to show
This whole life I have been dealing
With inner demons that stop me from feeling
Is my life okay, am I okay?
Or should I just stop today

No longer feeling well
Under weather can’t you tell that my heart needs to stop
My head will not stop speaking
Or my soul with not stop seeking where I should place my heart
Is my soul where it needs to be
Or is my life just a dream why do I feel this way?
On the ground but gravity is taking hold
I feel like I have lost control absorbing what I need today

I know no one will understand
But my life is like a grain of sand
And maybe it has to be this way
But this feeling won’t leave today

So why do we run from a fear
Does bravery bring us to tears
Is life worth living I no longer know
The pain that I am feeling I am scared to show
This whole life I have been dealing
With inner demons that stop me from feeling
Is my life okay, am I okay?
Or should I just stop today

So why do we run from a fear
Does bravery bring us to tears
Is life worth living I no longer know
The pain that I am feeling I am scared to show
This whole life I have been dealing
With inner demons that stop me from feeling
Is my life okay, am I okay?
Or should I just stop today

Everyone knows who they want to be
Endless possibilities but why does my body just surge
No one can dream like me
But no one would ever want to see because of my choice of words
So listen close when I talk for my pain never seems to hurt.

[Sasha Workbench]

I am tired of being a dreamer
Never taking action always a loser
Being smart with words but never taking action
Looking through a window of life but never finding satisfaction
Just maybe I am tired of living this life of sorrow
Looking forward to things that will never happen tomorrow

But I will take a step back on more time
Racing back in forth in this head of mine

The things I want to do but can’t be done
Just for a second, it seems like I know my decision
To take a jump to the edge and never look back
But just right at the edge my mind attacks
So instead of looking for the things that are new
I will do what I chose

I am just a glitch in the system
A thing to expect in the whole mission
To choose a life of being on the good side
It is something most people taking in stride
But living like this hurts a little to much
It is like putting up my head to the gun

But I will take a step back on more time
Racing back in forth in this head of mine

The things I want to do but can’t be done
Just for a second, it seems like I know my decision
To take a jump to the edge and never look back
But just right at the edge my mind attacks
So instead of looking for the things that are new
I will do what I chose

But I will take a step back on more time
Racing back in forth in this head of mine

The things I want to do but can’t be done
Just for a second, it seems like I know my decision
To take a jump to the edge and never look back
But just right at the edge my mind attacks
So instead of looking for the things that are new
I will do what I chose.

[Sasha Workbench]

Can you hear my voice repeating off the walls
The words getting high but then they start to fall
Does my voice even really mean anything
Can you hear it sound off as it rings
No it means nothing so don’t listen to the words I say
No it matters not if I truly get away
No one can understand my truest pains
For the voice they are driving me insane

The voice in head seem to know what the know
But nevertheless the voices are the one thing that will not go

I have not lived a thousand lives or felt a thousand pains
But I know deep down we seek attention just the same
But now that I no longer seek it and no longer need it should I exit stage right
Or should I follow the crowd all the way back down all the way away from the light
Now that the voice lead what I do I no longer care
But is it better to live life like nobody's really there
No longer a witness to this bad fitness of trying to be in the spotlight
Doing things we see on tv on that stupid screen you all have giving up the fight

No one cares about what you really want to say
Honestly if you are not famous does anyone care what you are eating today
That is how it feels to live a normal life that is normal enough
For I am a no one I don;t do cool things my bank out just holds up dust
The voice of an outraged man screaming in the black hole of nothingness
But I am not alone, I am surrounded by these failures I call friends
So hold you tinge for I am not done I still have these things to say
The voices in my head or not yet dead so you will not get away

The voice in head seem to know what the know
But nevertheless the voices are the one thing that will not go

I have not lived a thousand lives or felt a thousand pains
But I know deep down we seek attention just the same
But now that I no longer seek it and no longer need it should I exit stage right
Or should I follow the crowd all the way back down all the way away from the light
Now that the voice lead what I do I no longer care
But is it better to live life like nobody's really there
No longer a witness to this bad fitness of trying to be in the spotlight
Doing things we see on tv on that stupid screen you all have giving up the fight

So are we all thieves stealing from celebrities why do their lives matter to us
In the end we have nothing on are heads and are all just dust
Why do we give people this trust

I have not lived a thousand lives or felt a thousand pains
But I know deep down we seek attention just the same
But now that I no longer seek it and no longer need it should I exit stage right
Or should I follow the crowd all the way back down all the way away from the light
Now that the voice lead what I do I no longer care
But is it better to live life like nobody's really there
No longer a witness to this bad fitness of trying to be in the spotlight
Doing things we see on tv on that stupid screen you all have giving up the fight

So are we all thieves stealing from celebrities why do their lives matter to us
In the end we have nothing on are heads and are all just dust
Why do we give people this trust
Do will want what they have is are lives not enough?

[Sasha Workbench]

The lesson learned from the mistakes that have made
When it came off hard we tried again with the time we saved
You can not denine that the times have been hard
Just look at are hands you can still see the scars
Can you hold me tight as we take flight
From the pains we saw leave them at the side

You can take off like a shooting star
But when there is evil around please don’t go far

For you can be my guiding light
Safely showing me though the night
And when evil knocking at my door
You show me a safe path away from the war
For you can be the guiding ember
Burning brightly in the coldest December
For as long as you are there to guide the way
I will make it to the final days

The path way that has been worn down leads me astray
But I was safe because you showed me the right way
No cliff to fall off to break my bones and fail my feet
For the light you have never dewindals or is uncomplete
For every that know the light inside them always glows
They know that failure on this path never shows

But even if I fight by your side
You would be the leader of the rightest stride

For you can be my guiding light
Safely showing me though the night
And when evil knocking at my door
You show me a safe path away from the war
For you can be the guiding ember
Burning brightly in the coldest December
For as long as you are there to guide the way
I will make it to the final days

For you can be my guiding light
Safely showing me though the night
And when evil knocking at my door
You show me a safe path away from the war
For you can be the guiding ember
Burning brightly in the coldest December
For as long as you are there to guide the way
I will make it to the final
Remember the darkest days you lead me though
I still know as long as you are beside me there is nothing I can’t do.

For you can be my guiding light
Safely showing me though the night
And when evil knocking at my door
You show me a safe path away from the war
For you can be the guiding ember
Burning brightly in the coldest December
For as long as you are there to guide the way
I will make it to the final days.

[Sasha Workbench]

I am just a passer
A gust in the wind ,just let it sink right in, a natural disaster.
A hold a grudge better start to run from the hateful
No one left to cry you just watch the people die no more control
Never going to let you hold your own your not powerful over me
Yeah I got more nerve than you could serve and you can not see

Even though I may not be much to fight
I have a fire deep down inside
If you step in the ring I will show you that this light
Come from more than your pride

I will not stand down not this time
If someone is going to fall I will be the one to die
You know nothing about me no one can control this will
You punch me out but I try still
You can knock me out you can break my bones
You can take down a whole city yet I glow
For as long as there is a breath or a light…
Someone better stand and fight

I take blows
Falling to my knees but never begging it to ease for it will show
That you have hit the peak but you are still too weak to bring me down
Can’t you see that people will rise after one dies they stand around
No more a stranger to the pain still will stand to remain to be a witness
That you have flaws and  that I can rise to the cause to fight for the innocences

Even though I might not be able to last long
Sometimes scars will be winners dreams
And when I bleed I still remain strong
And even with the pressure you will not break me

I will not stand down not this time
If someone is going to fall I will be the one to die
You know nothing about me no one can control this will
You punch me out but I try still
You can knock me out you can break my bones
You can take down a whole city yet I glow
For as long as there is a breath or a light…
Someone better stand and fight

No longer will you push me aside
As long I can take the stride
I will not fall to one knee
For I rather die than flee

Ohh
I will not stand down not this time
If someone is going to fall I will be the one to die
You know nothing about me no one can control this will
You punch me out but I try still
You can knock me out you can break my bones
You can take down a whole city yet I glow
For as long as there is a breath or a light…
Someone better stand and fight
I better stand and fight
We better stand and fight.

[Sasha Workbench]

Let the world move around me
For they are blind and can not see
That tune that plays in my head
Is a curse to watch the disease spread
No no I just hope the doors will hold
Please keep in the warm and hold back the cold
Stand to and hold your head high
Stand alone but never leave my side

No more an angle for I have seen it all
Right from the dark I no more can fall

So should I keep playing this old game
For as long as I try I can leave this page
Does the impression I leave on your mind
Click it to place or does it split you in time
So should I take off the mask of my face
Remind people that these feelings can’t be erased
So hold on to what you know before I leave
Because the split is never as bad as it seems

Ignorise is always way too bliss
But no one could make me fall like this
A thousand voices behind me and they still don’t stop
Chatting, talking, and taking what they really want
No longer a citizen of innocents
For life is full of shots you take and I always miss
So if failure is the only option what choice do I have
Do I give into the darkness inside me or fail inside my lies

No more an angle for I have seen it all
Right from the dark I no more can fall

So should I keep playing this old game
For as long as I try I can leave this page
Does the impression I leave on your mind
Click it to place or does it split you in time
So should I take off the mask of my face
Remind people that these feelings can’t be erased
So hold on to what you know before I leave
Because the split is never as bad as it seems

No more an angle for I have seen it all
Right from the dark I no more can fall

So should I keep playing this old game
For as long as I try I can leave this page
Does the impression I leave on your mind
Click it to place or does it split you in time
So should I take off the mask of my face
Remind people that these feelings can’t be erased
So hold on to what you know before I leave
Because the split is never as bad as it seems.

[Sasha Workbench]

You better leave you head back
Otherwise it will just snap in half
For this road is pretty long
But in a blink I will be gone
Oh we are moving at light speed
On this Breakneck street

So can you hold on
For with in a second we will be gone
No chains could hold this heart beat
For the light is moving fast inside me
And now it is crystal clear
What I need to do here
So no more looking back
For tomorrow's moments will never lack

Could you just feel the breeze
For while I am moving life comes to eaze
So let reach for the sky
For even the heaviest change can’t stop us from getting high

You better leave you head back
Otherwise it will just snap in half
For this road is pretty long
But in a blink I will be gone
Oh we are moving at light speed
On this Breakneck street

Now just take a breath
For we only have a second left
To relax and find the peace
Or else you lose the pace in your feet
You are no longer all alone
Take a leap and you will find home
And where you are meant to be
So reach for the stars they will set you free

No longer part of the crowd
For they lack being in motion
For the stationary things bring me down
But when I move every door is open
No longer a solid object
I flow like oxygen into the free
Now don’t stop me for a moment
For you walls can’t handle this speed

Could you just feel the breeze
For while I am moving life comes to eaze
So let reach for the sky
For even the heaviest change can’t stop us from getting high

You better leave you head back
Otherwise it will just snap in half
For this road is pretty long
But in a blink I will be gone
Oh we are moving at light speed
On this Breakneck street.

[Sasha Workbench]

I feel like this has happened before
But the pain in my head is too much to take on
I feel like I have ramed my head into the desk just to find the right words
But there are no words to describe the pain that just hurts
Maybe I can run away from the pain
Keep on moving my feet just to get away
No longer can I stand still for just one moment to breath
Otherwise the pain would come back to my chest

Some people learn what the pains about
But I keep on running just to let it out

No one can stop me from where I am running
Tell me can you clock me at how fast I am gunning
My life a blur it is all that remain
If you tell me your sure it will get rid of the pain
No one can stop my feet
For my pain would mean defeat

No longer afraid what people say
Because their words don’t mean anything today
They could never know what I have been through every time I stop
Because if they knew they would stop me alot
People got talents and I got mine
I will keep on running till the end of time
The clock can never be sure if it is right or if it is wrong
But it knows I beat my skull just to wirte this dumb song

Some people learn what the pains about
But I keep on running just to let it out

No one can stop me from where I am running
Tell me can you clock me at how fast I am gunning
My life a blur it is all that remain
If you tell me your sure it will get rid of the pain
No one can stop my feet
For my pain would mean defeat

No longer slowing down
My feet are off the ground
I am sorry is your call does not reach me
But when I get back from feeling this feeling

Some people learn what the pains about
But I keep on running just to let it out

No one can stop me from where I am running
Tell me can you clock me at how fast I am gunning
My life a blur it is all that remain
If you tell me your sure it will get rid of the pain
No one can stop my feet
For my pain would mean defeat.

[Sasha Workbench]

it is in C Minor the chord progression is Am,F,C, and G with capo on the 3RD fret






I am not just a passerby
I am stuck here trying to find
A point to all of these things
All these writings that appear in my dreams
It a struggle but it is what I live for
Trying to finally settle the score
I’ll be the only one who will stand and fight
Even on the darkest night

I am tired of trying to explain
The thing that are in my brain
For the pain
Is all that remains

I am just a fighter
Trying to light the fire
Of my broken reality
I am a fighter of the broken things
No one can stand in front of me
For I am jumping with great velocity
It’s terminal my health if failing me
Flying with these broken wings

No longer just a poet
With no chose where I am going
I learned to pick up the sword
And become the balance of war
You think these chains can hold me
Temptation will no longer hold the key
For the doors that seem locked
For my will will be twice as strong

I am tired of trying to explain
The thing that are in my brain
For the pain
Is all that remains

I am just a fighter
Trying to light the fire
Of my broken reality
I am a fighter of the broken things
No one can stand in front of me
For I am jumping with great velocity
It’s terminal my health if failing me
Flying with these broken wings

I am just a fighter
Trying to light the fire
Of my broken reality
I am a fighter of the broken things
No one can stand in front of me
For I am jumping with great velocity
It’s terminal my health if failing me
Flying with these broken wings.

[Sasha Workbench]

Can someone lend me a hand I am beginning to sink in
Whatever is happening it is beginning to sink in my skin
My memory is failing I can not help myself anymore
Is this what it is like to feel helpless I don’t want to fall to this floor
My hands are slowly shaking the pain will never subside
The demons are slowly crawling and there is nowhere left to hide
Can anyone help get out of crazy chase
Every inch of me keep move in and out of place

Please I no longer what to lie about what is inside me
I feel like I can no longer fight the thing I can not see
Hold up a moment let me get my breath
Because I am tired of fighting when there is nothing left
Please come someone save me from the fate
Before it is too late

Know thy enemies more they you could ever know thyself
But when the darkness is inside you who can you ask for help
Are my hands really touching every single key every single ding
My hand keep on shaking but are they shaking or am I seeing things
I know longer want to feel the pain that resides in my head
Should I keep on live or should I just let myself be dead
Can someone hear my voice besides the echos on the walls
No longer can walk I don’t want to stand for I feel like I am going to fall

Please I no longer what to lie about what is inside me
I feel like I can no longer fight the thing I can not see
Hold up a moment let me get my breath
Because I am tired of fighting when there is nothing left
Please come someone save me from the fate
Before it is too late

I think you should leave me be so I can die on my grave
And when I will come back again I will choose who I will save

Please I no longer what to lie about what is inside me
I feel like I can no longer fight the thing I can not see
Hold up a moment let me get my breath
Because I am tired of fighting when there is nothing left
Please come someone save me from the fate
Before it is too late.

[Sasha Workbench]

t is hard to look back at the years we always had
But that time has slipped away it always really has
No one knows about tomorrow except the ones we can not reach
So shall I live and learn should I really teach
I learned about pain I saw the suffering
If only I could take it away but only you could carry me
You brought up after the whole world cast me out
Please never leave me because it is you I can’t live without

I don’t want to admit my fears
Because you are crystal clear
Don’t leave me behind
Don’t even know if this is love
But I will thank the stars above
For you are my peace of mind

No one said it would be easy they said I would learn to regret
The things I did today and of the things that I could never forget
Not one thing could bring me closer to the power inside
I will always stand for you for you are on my side
Know I could climb the mountain without but you would help the pain
You would straighten my hands and ease the weights
The time has come and gone know for you I will die for
But I rather live in this world to help your battles go on

I don’t want to admit my fears
Because you are crystal clear
Don’t leave me behind
Don’t even know if this is love
But I will thank the stars above
For you are my peace of mind

I never could take the time back the I spent protecting you
I will fight your justice your kingdom protection too
Just never let the darkness inside me keep you away
For as long as you are beside me you know I will say

I will never leave your side
Protect you after you even die
Because in heaven I know you will find
You could never be the one
I thought it was true but I was wrong
For you are my peace of mind.

[Sasha Workbench]

So lonely I feel like I have no soul
Looking for just a hand to hold
Knowing we have lost the battle they tossed
And my heart is getting to cold
My partner still works hard now
And I make him his clothes
But he was found dead in the morning
One of the only friends I have known

So tell me what is the point of living when everyone has no point to live
You look about for hope but the ship sunk years ago and know one knows where it is

So I trying to stay alive of my medication pills
But sometimes I can barely pay the bills
For my parents gave me a toss and wrote my name off
On every family members will
I found out the only peace I get from my head
Are the stuffed animals on my bed
For I may be old and the stories out grown
But they are my only true friends

So tell me what is the point of living when everyone has no point to live
You look about for hope but the ship sunk years ago and know one knows where it is

So tell me what is the point of living when everyone has no point to live
You look about for hope but the ship sunk years ago and know one knows where it is

So I am trying now to meet up my ends
For no one is here is my friend
But there my only hope is to sneak aboard a boat
And then try again

So tell me what is the point of living when everyone has no point to live
You look about for hope but the ship sunk years ago and know one knows where it is.

[Sasha Workbench]

The walls are made to hold me back
But all the walls do is prevent attacks
So should I stay in the castle walls
Or travel the world to find my call

Another day another blasted dime
Another foul way to lose my mind
All that has happened is a minor set back
When we remember it tomorrow we will all laugh
Hold the phone and shut the door
Where do we go when we're looking for more
What sparks fly when the fire starts
It matters not just follow your heart

Nothing will no longer hold you back
Make them stand aside for the just all lack
Look for tomorrow for it will see you through
Keep on searching for something new
For I know that one day your time will come
When that something new is done

Another trial but show no tears
Put them in denial and show not your fears
For as far as a river rages
Is the number of the new open pages
Stand back let’s set it off
Live life to the fullest today is not enough
For when climbing up the loneliest hills
You will still find friends who know how it feels

Nothing will no longer hold you back
Make them stand aside for the just all lack
Look for tomorrow for it will see you through
Keep on searching for something new
For I know that one day your time will come
When that something new is done

Nothing left in your way
Keep on pushing to see another day
As long as someone is willing to try
The something new can be found to night

Nothing will no longer hold you back
Make them stand aside for the just all lack

Find your shelter and find your home
For know no matter what or who you are you are not alone
Look for tomorrow for it will see you through
Keep on searching for something new
For I know that one day your time will come
When that something new is done

Look for tomorrow for it will see you through
as long as you search for something new.

[Sasha Workbench]

The world has shifted for the last time
But it keep moving and I keep losing my mind
All of my choices matter not
I am just looking for something new
You said you would be with me and help me out
But then I have fallen where are you now
All of my choices matter not
And now I don’t know what to do

I think I need to find the truth
The world can’t tell me what to do
But I wish I could be here with you
Because I don’t know what to do
I just need a moment to think
Then you are gone within a blink
I just don’t want to feel the pain
But I feel it just the same
Because I don’t know what I don’t know what to do

You were with me by my side
But then you left me alone to die
All of the things you know about me are wrong
Can someone tell me the truth

I think I need to find the truth
The world can’t tell me what to do
But I wish I could be here with you
Because I don’t know what to do
I just need a moment to think
Then you are gone within a blink
I just don’t want to feel the pain
But I feel it just the same
Because I don’t know what I don’t know what to do

This will all just fall apart
Nothing left nothing here no more
This will all just fall apart
No one will be here in this life
To help a hero's call be fine
No they won’t help at all
This will all just fall apart
Nothing left nothing here no more
This will all just fall apart
No one will be here in this life
To help a hero's call be fine
No they won’t help at all
No they won’t help at all.