On a sadder note

[Sasha Workbench]

This is not in "My Things" because it told me to place it here somewhere else because it is a voice that I think you will always find inside yourself...(Note to self, place sadder songs here so they can easily be ignored by people having a good day)(Also did I post this before?)



The Sad Note




That tune that was played I don’t think I love it anymore…
Can someone sing me to sleep my brain is getting bored
Can I cry today? Is someone judging me right now?
No one cares about my talents insanity is bringing me down

So am I like you in every way? Because in the end we are all the same
Is it normal to think the things I thought? look in the mirror and see what you all have got
For I know longer want to know
Because I want to go back home

The song that I played I always played it all by ear
Forgive me if you want to play it for the notes are no longer clear
So can I sing you a song? Do you want to hear the sound of my voice
I know you don’t care it not like you had a choice
Did you?

So am I like you in every way? Because in the end we are all the same
Is it normal to think the things I thought? look in the mirror and see what you all have got
For I know longer want to know
Because I want to go back home

So do they care anymore?
Why don’t they love me in this war?
I just want to go back home

So all the notes that are played float away into the storm
Can you just hold me close can you just keep me warm?
The words that were sung are going away from view
Please don’t let me go I am afraid you will too
I loved the note I played they came inside my soul
So if you hate my tune please still don’t let me go

So when this song is done and gone what will you do?
Please hold me close or maybe you will too…
Please don’t let me go for I have always been like you
Please when you let me go know that you kept me together like glue
So let me go I have always known the truth...

[Sasha Workbench]

I might as well say goodbye...But I not say it to those reading unless they find it... I plan to let these word stop sinking in to my soul, but it never will so I hope other understand what it is about






Can you play the tune we use to sing along?
I don’t remember the words I guess I will hold my tongue
Do you remember the joy of running around in the dirt
What happened to the good old days is that what growing up was worth
So the bay and the crashing waves hit me hard to brain
Just like the tune in my soul telling I am not in the same
So what the point in living I don’t what to try any more
Can I give into the darkness I don’t want to fight this war

So can I run out of this world in time
No pays attention so what the point in trying
Can I go home from this painful shock
I am tired of being what I am not
So now I am standing here all alone
Wanting to go back home

Do you remember are life before we could feel all the sad
I asking what we did we were never all to bad
But suddenly people are asking what we need
But do the really care or is it all for the money
Now I am here writing songs that no one will see anyway
So is there a point in this can someone take away all the pain
I feel like these pills don’t work why do the give them to me still
Are they just hind up on drugs if the is being high I don’t like how it feels

So can I run out of this world in time
No pays attention so what the point in trying
Can I go home from this painful shock
I am tired of being what I am not
So now I am standing here all alone
Wanting to go back home

The tune that play along in my mind is scaring me to death
So should I keep coming back or should I stop wasting my breath
That was my favorite thing but now I feel like I should I leave
But before I go I just want to say one more thing

So can I run out of this world in time
No pays attention so what the point in trying
Can I go home from this painful shock
I am tired of being what I am not
So now I am standing here all alone
Wondering if I will find my home
I am sorry mother I lied to your soul
I will leave the things I know...

[Sasha Workbench]

"Smoke And Mirrors" to be quite honest I don't know where to place this one....






I have never  really counted all the blood I bleed
Because it happens countless times in these dreams
So can someone tell me what to do for I feel I’m lost
So did they mean to leave me here or have they forgot?
So instead of moving on can I move onwards back?
Do these questions matter or do they all just fall in the cracks?

Now I am here can’t they hear me scream
Let they world see the broken mirrors and look at the dreams

You know I am tired of the smoke and mirrors
Stop giving me these illusions I want to be nearer
I have fallen so far can’t connect like a satellite
So am I a lost cause and fall down without of fight
So can you cut of the green screen I want to see what is real
Stop it with these projections for they hide how you feel

Emotionally I feel like I should go off and find a good place to drown
But motianly I feel like a have been they only one running around
You know all I am trying to do is find some peace of mind
But you keep hiding away yourself so I am running out of time
I know I am not the only one who know how all these pain feels
A million needles in my back bleeding till I collapse on this field

Now I know that some days we all feel the pain
But when we reject how others feel, won't they do the same?

You know I am tired of the smoke and mirrors
Stop giving me these illusions I want to be nearer
I have fallen so far can’t connect like a satellite
So am I a lost cause and fall down without of fight
So can you cut of the green screen I want to see what is real
Stop it with these projections for they hide how you feel

I am so very lost on what I am to do
I just want to raise your spirits up and fix every bit of you
But now I feel so lost and out of clever thoughts
So should we care about each other or should we make that stop?

Now I am running around without of sound or any clue
For the fire in me has died because I can no longer help you

You know I am tired of the smoke and mirrors
Stop giving me these illusions I want to be nearer
I have fallen so far can’t connect like a satellite
So am I a lost cause and fall down without of fight
So can you cut of the green screen I want to see what is real
Stop it with these projections for they hide how you feel
So when will the smoke and mirrors break and fall away?
Because I know deep down we all need to be saved.

[Sasha Workbench]

I have watched so many people ruin their lives by hurting themselves, But my parents did that for me so might as well show the pain of it some how....I was not think about really writing this, I was originally going to write what is wrong with me, but I know the reason my genetics are messed up are because of these things. Might do another one where I talk more about the animal inside me and not others...





Addiction



Stayed way up all last night, but I am not satisfied
The time was all wasted, and now I am just tired
You know I say that I am fine but I can still lie you know
I like hanging around with people I always have liked
No I am not one of you but I think your still fine
You know the animal inside has already fully grown
And I know that I am not really human at all
Not really related to Adam nor found with his flaws
Yeah you can skip the last line but the song will lose it flow

Yeah don’t you know who I am?
I want to go far but not leave her hands
Yeah I let go of all my hopes and dreams
Let it roll as I gamble away all my sleep
But I know it can’t be

Yeah I might be addicted tossing away everything
Oh just take away all my money and hand me out the drink
No I can’t taste the wine but I know I am feeling fine alone
Yeah the animal inside me has taken away my clothes
Who cares if I get completely lost or end up broke
Know I am lying in bed and the systems are dead and broke
So the words that have been written are being left incomplete
I am drowning inside and all my thoughts have been thrown out of sink
So I am hang around three feet of the ground on a thin rope

So forgive me if I have gone completely out of tune
I hold up myself on grains of sand and am slipping to my doom
I might be alright but I can’t ever let the light grow
Well thank you for stopping
And read all the words to see where I’m running
You know that this show is come from nothing
So never let me go I will reap what I so

Yeah don’t you know who I am?
I want to go far but not leave her hands
Yeah I let go of all my hopes and dreams
Let it roll as I gamble away all my sleep
But I know it can’t be

Yeah I might be addicted tossing away everything
Oh just take away all my money and hand me out the drink
No I can’t taste the wine but I know I am feeling fine alone
Yeah the animal inside me has taken away my clothes
Who cares if I get completely lost or end up broke
Know I am lying in bed and the systems are dead and broke
So the words that have been written are being left incomplete
I am drowning inside and all my thoughts have been thrown out of sink
So I am hang around three feet of the ground on a thin rope

Yeah I might be addicted tossing away everything
Oh just take away all my money and hand me out the drink
No I can’t taste the wine but I know I am feeling fine alone
Yeah the animal inside me has taken away my clothes
Who cares if I get completely lost or end up broke
Know I am lying in bed and the systems are dead and broke
So the words that have been written are being left incomplete
I am drowning inside and all my thoughts have been thrown out of sink
So I am hang around three feet of the ground on a thin rope.

[Sasha Workbench]

I find the best word are written under stress because then people are more likely to tell the truth and this day in age there is too much of this stress so forgive me if you don't agree but life is full of monsters and I am honestly one of them so if you see me walking down a road turn away and run it will be better for you health.



Animals


Can people stop just for a moment
I kind of feel stuck right where I'm growing
Yeah I know, I think, I might, be a crime
So can you stop me from the terrors
Can you take all the protective measures
You say I hurt, I think I just doing fine

But in the end the lions inside you will eat you up alive
And the cleverest fox will learn to take much more than your mind
But in the end I am a child lost in the loneliest wild
Can someone tell me which way the crow will fly?

So let the wild in and throw out what we know
It gotten in my skin and it will never let me go
So open it wider, and kindle the fire
And tell me are you now ready for the show
For I am a monster and that is all I know

My eyes I see in the mirror are not mine
My fear I know are running around this time
Come on put on a show and let them all see
Light up the stage and show what is there
Show them why they all should be scared
For if only they could know I a not what I seem

But the fire inside one’s self can let the tigers in
But the corruption in you mind will always the the animals win
For in the end we are all lost from the battles we fought
So you can run away all you want but you can’t out run what you’ve now caught

So let the wild in and throw out what we know
It gotten in my skin and it will never let me go
So open it wider, and kindle the fire
And tell me are you now ready for the show
For I am a monster and that is all I know

It getting so cold outside and you will freeze without a coat
So know you enemies and your friends for this world can get cut throat

So let the wild in and throw out what we know
It gotten in my skin and it will never let me go
So open it wider, and kindle the fire
And tell me are you now ready for the show
For I am a monster and that is all I know

So let the world revolve around for life is never fair
I know what is inside you and you have grown to scared
But where is the light deep in the night
And get ready for what will come will always come next
Forgive me if I wasted your time and kill me if I wasted you breath
For the sun might shine but the stars I see are going to be the best
So now that this poem it done you can all just forget.

[Sasha Workbench]

I feel like I have been walking a line for much too long
I am looking up to the sky and the star because I fear the fall
I think I just might slip any second and will never stop
I will just keep falling like a bomb that has been drop
Does anyone care about the damage they have done
No longer feeling hopeful because I have nowhere to run

So just let the bullets fly
For who cares if I die?
No really cares about me
What you say I can’t believe
So do you want me to despise
What I see in your eyes

You say that hope can be found in the darkest room
But no light can shine where the darkness brings doom
There is no such things as diamonds in this rough
Can you please stop lying oh you know I have had enough
You keep telling to reach for the stars but it is a cloudy night
So who is to blame when I final give up the whole fight

So just let the bullets fly
For who cares if I die?
No really cares about me
What you say I can’t believe
So do you want me to despise
What I see in your eyes

So just let the bullets fly
For who cares if I die?
No really cares about me
What you say I can’t believe
So do you want me to despise
What I see in your eyes.

[Sasha Workbench]

My Demons are very real though no one can no that for a fact they sometimes do things that scare the daylight out of me...one of them was a dream I had in class and then the voices that followed...What a normal day.



Well people walk around this place in a shuffle
People on the sidelines will hussle and bussle
Listen to them and you will never feel the same
We all stand alone on this forsaken planet
Forget what you know until you have “it”
Because no one knows that people go their own way

I stumbled down to where the lost boys are found
Never have I seen such a sorry looking crowd
But I will never forget all the things that they said

Everyday you go down and the chains get heavy
Forgive the lost for the know not what their sending
For let them go and they will show you who is dead
I have seen the world fall and I can do nothing
But I’ll carry on and continue my struggling
For this life only happens once except I have already been dead

So the moon will shine over all of are heads
As are minds seem to fill with the darkest of dreads
I would shut the door but the lock is only but broke
And then there are the flames that drive me insane
They push down the street and just won’t go away
They break down the wall just to get at my throat

So when the world comes out of collapsing
And the dreams all fall away while we are napping
I am feeling so cold and can’t sleep for the things that I wrote

Everyday you go down and the chains get heavy
Forgive the lost for the know not what their sending
For let them go and they will show you who is dead
I have seen the world fall and I can do nothing
But I’ll carry on and continue my struggling
For this life only happens once except I have already been dead

I am sick of my face can it go away?
No one could love me at their own grace
Who know what I know what I have seen in the stars
Oh just take my life away there's nothing to save
Run me over and leave dead on the highway
I don’t want to watch what will happen to the ones in my heart

So as the world burn as the devil is laughing
I will cough up my soul with the pain that happens
And watch the water flow as the world tears itself apart
So don’t you wonder what I have seen or why I keep living?
When life has become Oblivion for those who keep “sinning”
So can I have a dream somewhere I know

I know the demons want what is best
For the are not demons, but angels instead
I call them what I want for I fear what they show
And let the world see the colors they want
For they know nothing are I fear what will come
For when this world falls will they then know?

[Sasha Workbench]

The Dive





Don’t mind me I am passing by
There is nothing special about me so don’t ask why
The moment I am in are getting me up high
So don’t mind when my emotion takes that dive

I am racing in a world full of motion
Everyone keeps walking around and I’m scared
So I finally decided to make this notion
Before I float away into the open air
I feel like the world is moving under my feet
And now I feel like I am getting a little sick
My eyes are open wide as the death creeps
Can anyone hear the metronome tick?

The music in my head is getting loud
Can someone out there hear me now?
Take a moment to hear the sound
As the people try to tear us down

Don’t mind me I am passing by
There is nothing special about me so don’t ask why
The moment I am in are getting me up high
So don’t mind when my emotion takes that dive
I am trying to learn how to explain
The problem that reinforce themselves in my brain
So are we all just the same
Or is that what they said to make me feel sane?

I know my voice is cutting in and out
Is my my singal just bad or my is connection broken
So hear I am sitting alone in my house
Wasting my time walking around think of what I am hoping
But then I think I hear the drum begin to beat
So I throw my kite to the wind and see it run free
In the open air so the whole world can repeat
The words of the old and the wisdom they see

So don’t you mind when I ask
What we live for or when we relax
I know I seem annoyed but this pointless task
Or when I lie and hide behind this mask
(clicking)

Don’t mind me I am passing by
There is nothing special about me so don’t ask why
The moment I am in are getting me up high
So don’t mind when my emotion takes that dive
So don’t mind if all of my thoughts are heavy in thought
But when you look at life it is really all we got
You know that I will be hungry for the lot
The next time when you starve my imagination on things you bought

So don’t try to cut me out
Everytime my words get loud
So skip me if you want me down
Because only one thing matters now

Don’t mind me I am passing by
There is nothing special about me so don’t ask why
The moment I am in are getting me up high
So don’t mind when my emotion takes that dive
I know all thing are made in sink
So will you let these word hit in you head in repeat
Round and round this endless skating rink
Till will all fall down and learn are peace

So can I take that dive away from this place
This endless refrain will be lost in space
So when I finally get away will the world erase
Or should I finally wise up and change my race
When that dive comes and I am lost again.

[Sasha Workbench]

Welcome To The Show

Cappo second fret cords of Am C G D


You feel up then your down
And I am done with the sound
Because it become really clear when no one want me around
You know I am sick of the trial can some switch the show
So just relax take a seat
Because I feeling beat
What does it matter with friends when the don’t care about dreams
Do you know what time it is because now I think my life be gone

So does it matter at all where I put these words
When there is not one person in this world
Who could care bout the things in my head
So I am done with every single little thing
That only will be found in my dreams
I don’t want to put up with it I rather sooner be dead
But maybe that is how life goes?

So place your bets
No regrets
When everyone cares about themselves
Say your prayers
No one cares
Is any one even really out there?
I thought I was strong, well I could not be more wrong
I thought this was my peak performance by it’s the end of the week
No I am questioning every little thing I know
Welcome to the show

Can someone please hit me up
Because now I want to get drunk
Forget the things I woke up for that were taken by someone else
You know I could say I feel fine, but I don’t lie anymore
I feel like I have been robbed
With the problems I have begun to solve
Now they all came back and my hopes have begun to dissolve
You know life is like this all the time, but when will the good finally show?

So dig me that shallow grave
Because my hopes are stowaways
As long as they stay I won’t care no more
Double trouble with a loaded gun
And they say life's meant to be fun
So pack your bags and jump off the top floor
And maybe then someone will know

So place your bets
No regrets
When everyone cares about themselves
Say your prayers
No one cares
Is any one even really out there?
I thought I was strong, well I could not be more wrong
I thought this was my peak performance by it’s the end of the week
No I am questioning every little thing I know
Welcome to the show

The world table will forever turn
One moment your at the high end and then you will get what you deserve
So pack up we are headed south
Because no one cares about the where’s and the about’s
So forgive me when I start to grow
For I am just a child looking where to go…
But maybe that’s how life goes?

So place your bets
No regrets
When everyone cares about themselves
Say your prayers
No one cares
Is any one even really out there?
I thought I was strong, well I could not be more wrong
I thought this was my peak performance by it’s the end of the week
No I am questioning every little thing I know
Welcome to the show
Then confront yourself and then learn from the things I’ve sown.

[Sasha Workbench]

The Light



I'm passing through a solid plane
To settle my thoughts, to think straight
All of me I have bottled up right
Tossed into the darkness never to feel the light
I have been wondering alone for much too long
Can some send me hope because all of mine is gone
I am tired of apologizing for every single mistake
But the path is to far from what I can make

The cracks in the road depths are going deep
Forgive me if I can’t fall asleep

I am locked up from everyone outside
Tired of running out of all this time
So the door are lock and will remain closed
Feeling a pain that I know no one knows
For who here as like me in every way
For as long as search I can’t see the day
I know that it never matter what I say
For this where I leave without complain

The boat has gone away and the plane has crashed
How can I find a way without get lashed at
Broken bottles overlay on the floor
A crashing sound that says what's at the core

So with no word I can find to tell
Might as well give up where I fell

I am locked up from everyone outside
Tired of running out of all this time
So the door are lock and will remain closed
Feeling a pain that I know no one knows
For who here as like me in every way
For as long as search I can’t see the day
I know that it never matter what I say
For this where I leave without complain

So my path is gone from the right road
The road that would have lead me home
So no longer afraid of the total dark
Let it take me away from where we start

No I don’t really want to leave
But the things that are inside my soul are killing me

I am locked up from everyone outside
Tired of running out of all this time
So the door are lock and will remain closed
Feeling a pain that I know no one knows
For who here as like me in every way
For as long as search I can’t see the day
I know that it never matter what I say
For this where I leave without complain

They locked the doors on my face
Forgive me if I don’t look in the right place
Forged my soul in the darkest forge
But my heart flickering out and my light is worn
The tale been told as they die
The pain will soon pass from the light in the eyes.

[Sasha Workbench]

That was my favorite life, too bad it's over and done
But now I am stuck right here, there is no where left to run
So this world is damned I wished I could save it all
Forgive me father for all the things they do wrong
I can hear the piano tune playing them to the graves
Please give them one more chance I will take their place.

I am normal to change now, and forget the things I have known?
Is it normal to tell them, who I am inside my soul?
I feel like I am confused
But what do I have left to lose

I forgot who I am, but now I am starting to know
Maybe life works like that, the light always will show
Dose he care about that, I hope he loves us all
But when I step back is when I begin to fall
can you hear the chords playing all in this line
Let the sounds race ahead so you don't fall behind

I am normal to change now, and forget the things I have known?
Is it normal to tell them, who I am inside my soul?
I feel like I am confused
But what do I have left to lose
I don't have what I need to lose
Can I learn to love what I need to lose

I remember everything, like who I am inside my soul
So can I save my goodbye from all the things to know
Can you let the piano play I know they get what they reap
But know I have tried my best and know that these tears will sink
Goodbye all "my" friends I am sorry for what will come
This was my favorite life, too bad it's over and done.

[Sasha Workbench]

Change



I know nothing about the vision that I see at night
I toss and turn but I could never see the light
The pain is killing me I don’t want anymore
Can someone lend me a hand I feel I going sore
The time has come for me to move on away
No more childish things for the newer days
But I don’t want to leave these memories behind
Can some please try to change my mind

The moments that we used to love are all gone
Can these last seconds just stay
I know the whole world is telling me to grow up and move
But I am not ready for that change

So some time will go on from here
But right now my life is pretty unclear
Can someone tell me, where do I go from here?
My seconds are slowly falling
So does that mean I have no calling?
I think that I just stalling, from what I don’t want to face
I am not ready for that change

I feel like my demons are slowly getting better
At slowly taking over my mind of the welter
Nothing sticks in my head today
So can someone else just show me the way?

The moments that we used to love are all gone
Can these last seconds just stay
I know the whole world is telling me to grow up and move
But I am not ready for that change

So some time will go on from here
But right now my life is pretty unclear
Can someone tell me, where do I go from here?
My seconds are slowly falling
So does that mean I have no calling?
I think that I just stalling, from what I don’t want to face
I am not ready for that change

My time I feel is now all gone
My memories don’t matter to them, someone tell me that I’m wrong
I feel like I am slowly slipping from these worlds grasp
No I don’t want to go know please let these final moments last
I know it time to grow up now but don’t let go of my past

So some time will go on from here
But right now my life is pretty unclear
Can someone tell me, where do I go from here?
My seconds are slowly falling
So does that mean I have no calling?
I think that I just stalling, from what I don’t want to face
I am not ready for that change.